~ True Love ~

He was in his fifties
strong arms, well build
with thick moustache across his upper lip
Looks so happy in his mid life

at his age
I bet others will be busy with their life
playing fancy games and what not
chasing maidens for an affairs

but this one is different
specially on this warm shinny sunset
and very different
cos he was smiling a different smile

merrily he walks across the street
singing softly love song he always sings
hands holding tight
on a push chair his wife sitting in

unable to walk, stand, or even move
crippled, paralyzed, unable even to talk
she was enjoying her rid
all she can do left was only smile

her husband
proud and happy
love her very much
love her deeply

I can tell from his smile
and her smile
merrily walks across the street
singing softly love songs he always sings

~ What's Up Last Night ~

when the mood was right
when time was perfect
when you and me were together
I just can't spit it out

You know what I was going to say
You know what I wanted
and you know that I knew what you want
but I just can't spit it out

One wrong move
One wrong action
one slip tongue
good thing went bad

just like a tug of war
I pull it here
you pull it there
just like a game no one can win

just like blaming game
I blame you
You blame me
just like a game no one would loose

I was angry
You were angry
our children sleeps quitly
know nothing about you and me

should I say sorry?
about a thing I knew not?
or should I ask you to say sorry?
and I know you wouldn't

or...
can we just give a smile to each other
forget the past so I can spit it out aloud
I LOVE YOU

~ Two Sides Mirror ~

He was enjoying his smoke
sat lazily in the corner of the street
watching passer by as they hurried in their busy life
He was enjoying his life

He was in his 30 i believed
strong arm and muscular body
people might call him a thug for his features
He was still young, too young to enjoy life as he was

That might be my harsh opinion
or maybe I was correct?
for what I saw...
He was smoking like there'll be no tomorrow

Some people were busy doing what others tell them to do
Some people were busy telling others what to do
Some people were busy doing what they think they should do
They were all busy making a living

Let's just say that he has millions of dollar in his bank account
so that he wont bug anyone for his pleasures
Let's just say that I was jealous because I am still doing what others tell me to do
and always pretends that it is ok to be always being told

now what...
he is a rich man enjoying his happy life
and I am a pity little creature picking up whatever trash people threw at me
am I miserable or what?

~ It was Supposed to ~

I know it was going to be a busy day
tight schedule, too many meetings
so much things to do, so little time
I rushed my car through the famous traffic jam of Jakarta

Dodged an aged old car
I put up some more speed
Dodged a bike with too many people on it
I put up some more speed

I knew I was too fast
I needed to be fast
I was too in a hurry
Until something flashed in front of me

!Bam! I said to myself
!Bam! was what I expected
there this guy, stand in front of my car
lucky him, my brake worked

Thousands of yells and Millions of swears
readied themselves to be bursted out of my dirty mouth
but the lucky guy, wave his hand to me, and smiled
slowly he crossed the street, with his smile still on his face

That busy day
was instantly turned
into a happy day
...imagine what smile can do to you?

~ Baja ~

"Baja, dihasilkan dari biji besi yang sangat keras"
"Dicampur dengan biji metal lainnya"
"Kemudian dipanaskan dengan suhu yang sangat tinggi hingga melunak"
"Lalu ditempa bertubi tubi dan dibentuk menjadi baja"

*Diambil dan diterjemahkan dari novel Soulforge oleh Margaret Weiss and Tracy Hickmann

***

Dua bidadari kecil yang lucu
yang besar dua tahun umurnya
yang kecil dua bulan umurnya
Dua duanya kesayangan

Kakeknya bilang "Sekolahnya harus go international!!!"
Neneknya bilang "Harus berkualitas dan bermutu!!!"
Kakeknya yang lain bilang "Harus berisi anak-anak pintar untuk bersaing!!!"
Neneknya yang lain bilang "Kalau perlu yang paling mahal dan berkelas!!!"

Kulihat istriku disampingku
tidak banyak berucap dan sangat penurut
dan Ia pun berkata
"Aku hanya ingin agar jika mati nanti, anakku akan selalu mendoakanku"

***

Sekolah ada proses penempaan individu
bagaikan baja yang kokoh,
Individu yang kuat adalah hasil tempaan pelajaran hidup yang keras

~ My Empty Belly ~

They say I'm a lucky guy
travel the world far and wide
been here done that
Just to satisfy my empty belly

They say not many men like me
with tons of money
and limitless spare time
Just to satisfy my empty belly

Wise man say
You eat to live
I live to eat
Just to satisfy my empty belly

after hundreds of roasted ducks
after thousands of grilled lambs
and millions of T-bone steaks fiestas
I couldn't yet satisfy my empty belly

***

She is two now
she talk like a grown up
and act like one
she my oldest daughter

she is eating a cheap rice cake
its not the best food around
but she is eating it lusciously
she is eating it appetizingly

she looked at me and walked to me
she tripped and the rice cake fell from her hand
abit dirty, she picked up the rice cake
she looked at me and hand me the rice cake
"Ini untuk daddy"

***

After hundreds of roasted ducks
After thousands of grilled lambs
and millions of T-bone steaks fiestas
a cheap rice cake, with a bit dirt on it
successfuly satisfied my laughing belly

Its been awhile since I updated this log.
so many ideas went by
too many
here they go