Poedjangga's Corner

2011-11-23T18:05:00.000-08:00

~ Strategi Hidup ~

untuk hidup lebih baik
selalu merasa kepepet
selalu merasa tidak ada pilihan
selalu merasa ingin berbuat lebih

untuk hidup lebih baik
jangan lupakan orang tua
jangan lupakan pasangan
selalu sayangi anak

untuk hidup lebih baik
bersyukurlah
berbagilah
bersabarlah

untuk hidup lebih baik
ingat Tuhanmu
jangan sia siakan waktu
peluk dan cium ibumu.

*cheers

2011-11-22T18:38:00.001-08:00

~ Ngompol ~

Si kecil ngompol
baunya pesing
kasian kakaknya
ikutan pesing

Si kecil ngompol
semalem rewel
gak mau pipis
dedinya bawel

Si kecil ngompol
dibangunin dedi
kasurnya basah
langsung disuruh mandi

*cheers

2011-11-21T17:15:00.000-08:00

~ Ngotot ~

Kadang kita sering ngotot ngerjain sesuatu
pengen cepet selese
pengen hasilnya bagus
pengen sempurna

ujung ujungnya,
kerjaan jadi lambat
hasilnya jelek
dan jauh dari yang diinginkan

Bro, hidup ini udah susah
jangan dibikin lebih susah
kerja keras ok
tapi ngotot? nggak perlu kali yah

buang tenaga
buang pikiran
ngabisin waktu
santai dikit

jangan sampe hanya demi satu tujuan
kita ngorbanin semua yang udah ada
semua dibelakang kita
dan semua yang udah kita dapet

judi itu namanya
gak baik
gak sehat
santai dikit

*peace

2011-11-20T19:31:00.000-08:00

~ Efisien dan Efektif~

Dua kata Efisien dan Efektif sering sekali dipergunakan dalam dunia kerja
mereka bisa dipergunakan bersamaan, bisa juga secara terpisah

Efisien bisa diartikan menjadi hemat
sedangkan efektif bisa diartikan menjadi tepat

susah juga kalo semua hal harus efisien dan efektif
karena biasanya, kalo hemat, bisa jadi nyasar
dan kalo mau tepat, bis ajadi harus mahal
nah bagaimana kita bisa dapet titik tengah dikeduanya?

contoh pagi ini saya punya jadwal miting 2 buah
meeting dengan grup A dijadwalkan 1 jam
dan meeting dengan grup B dijadwalkan 2 jam
apa yang saya lakukan?

saya kebut miting dengan grup A 45 menit
yang penting-penting saja dibahas
tanpa tele-tele
dan bener bener EFEKTIF

saya majuin miting dengan grup B dan selese dalam 1 jam 15 menit
bener2 ngebut dan tanpa basa basi
semua tercatat
dan bener bener EFEKTIF

setelah selesai kedua miting itu, saya masih punya waktu luang 1 jam
sehingga saya bis amngerjakan pekerjaan lainnya yang numpuk
dan hari ini
saya EFESIEN 1 jam

*gak penting

*cheers

2011-11-16T17:16:00.000-08:00

~ 130th Post ~

This is my 130th post
I never liked number 13
they say it is cursed
they say bad luck

but this is my 130th post
my milestone in writing whats in my head
whats in my mind
and what i have been thinking about

and This is my 130th post
I like to write
and i wont stop writing
for you to enjoy

*cheers

2011-11-16T00:46:00.000-08:00

~ Defense is Your Best Offense ~

Some of the vendors I work with always put their defensive mode on
They will chew every rock I threw and every bullet I fired
the have the most sophisticated shield called bullet proof contracts in front of them
Me, as their so called "customer", can only pay... and must pay

How'd I deal with them?
I did not deal.
I talk.
I discuss.

I dont wait for their defensive to go down
cause they just never will
I dont supposed they will make mistake
and in fact they never did

I talk
I discuss
then I walk to the store next door
and I speak loudly so the vendor hear my laughter

I talk
I discuss
loudly with the vendor next door
so the competitive feeling builds up

the shield will always up
but no one stays behind it anymore
the vendor will always be too greedy
to take my money

the shield will always up
but the greedy vendor is busy elsewhere
trying to take down the vendor next door
to take my money

then
I put my money elsewhere
where the shield is up
where no one can touch

then
the vendor compete
to bring my shield down
to take my money

but the shield will always be up
and my money safe within

outside the vendors shot at one another
to take my money

then I just have to wait till the winner
give their soul to me willingly

*cheers

2011-11-14T18:22:00.000-08:00

~ Membangun Koalisi ~

Dunia kerja adalah dunia yang sangat kejam
kerja keras dan usaha orang tidak dinilai secara langsung
hasil yang bagus belum tentu dinilai bagus
hasil yang jelek malah mungkin bisa dinilai luar biasa

Dunia kerja bisa jadi kuburan pekerja keras
tapi bisa juga jadi arena juara bagi pencari muka
baik perusahaan yang diurus negara
apalagi perusahaan yang dimiliki swasta

pertanyaannya, bagaimana supaya kita bisa sukses disana?
dan bagaimana kita bisa terus berhasil naik keatas?

banyak cara menuju kepuncak
baik bagi perusahaan negara, maupun perusahaan swasta
banyak cara menuju keatas
baik dengan jujur, maupun dengan tipu muslihat

cara yang paling baik adalah dengan membangun landasan yang kokoh terlebih dahulu

jika anda baru masuk kerja, masih menjadi karyawan level paling rendah
usahakan berteman dengan sebanyak banyaknya karyawan selevel
hindari permusuhan, hindari konflik, utamakan kebersamaan
tapi jangan lupa, asah kemampuan utama kalian, dan berani tampil didepan

jika anda sudah dikenal oleh teman selevel
saatnya ada kenal dengan atasan anda. begitu juga atasan lainnya
tunjukkan kemampuan ada yang sesungguhnya, dan komitmen profesionalitas anda
tunjukkan bahwa anda mampu diberi tanggung jawab lebih, dan berani mengambil resiko

jangan berhenti memperluas pergaulan
hindari permusuhan, hindari konflik, utamakan kebersamaan
jangan berhenti menjual diri anda
berani ambil resiko, usahakan selalu menepati janji

pada saatnya nanti
semua orang hanya tau satu nama
dan hanya satu nama yang akan mereka cari
nama anda

pada saat itulah anda akan terbawa ke atas.

dan jangan pernah lupakan teman teman ada yang ada dibawah
dan jangan pernah tinggalkan teman teman anda yang dulu selevel
dan jangan pernah memulai permusuhan, konflik, atau meninggalkan kebersamaan
sesungguhnya teman anda yang dibawah, akan menjadi pondasi kekuatan bagi kesuksesan dan dikemudian hari

*cheers

2011-11-14T01:32:00.000-08:00

~ Tolong ~

Menolong orang itu sebenernya menolong diri kita sendiri
Memikirkan orang itu sebenernya memikirkan diri kita sendiri
semuanya akan kembali ke diri kita sendiri
ntah bagaimana caranya, dan ntah kapan datangnya

banyak cara menolong orang lain
dari bersedekah uang
memberi "pencerahan"
atau sekedar memberikan bantuan tenaga

banyak yang skeptis tentang menolong
sebenernya gak ada sih yang namanya pelit mutlak
sepelit2nya orang, pasti dia pernah berbagi juga
tapi yang banyak adalah mencari cari alasan untuk tidak menolong

beberapa bulan lalu saya menolong orang
saya beri dia kail
supaya dia bisa mancing
dan sekarang, lumayan dia udah bisa dapet ikan kembung sama tongkol

beberapa bulan lalu juga saya menolong orang
saya beri dia jaring
supaya dia bisa menjaring
dan sekarang, lumayan dia udah bisa dapet ikan teri sama udang

mereka gak pernah tuh
ngirimin saya ikan kembung atau tongkol
apalagi ikan teri atau udang
tapi alhamdulillah saya sering dapet ikan hiu bahkan ikan paus...

cobain deh
jangan banyak alesan
bantuin deh semua orang yang ada disekitar kita
diminta atau tidak

***
Perhatian
pelit dapat mengakibatkan permusuhan dan hilangnya silahturami
jika sakit berlanjut, silahkan isi kotak amal terdekat
***

*cheers

2011-11-14T01:25:00.000-08:00

~ Kekuatan Alam ~

dalam piramida makanan
makhluk paling bawah sudah pasti akan menjadi makanan makhluk di tingkat atasnya
yang lemah akan menjadi bulan bulanan yang kuat
yang kurang akan menjadi incaran yang kelebihan

begitu juga di dunia kerja
pangkat dan jabatan menentukan siapa makan siapa
siapa nyuruh siapa
dan siapa bisa marahin siapa

hari ini ada pengalaman menarik yang baru dipelajari
bahwa diatas atasan masih ada atasan lainnya
diatas atasan tadi, juga masih ada atasan lagi
terus begitu...

Jadi,
kalo kita dimarahin bos
inget,
diatas bos masih ada bos

Dan,
kalo kita marahin bawahan
bisa jadi,
diapun akan marahin bawahannya lagi

dan kalo kita nggak punya bawahan untuk dimarahin lagi
cepet bergerak... rubah haluan
usahakan supaya bisa naik ke atas
secepetnya

jangan pasrah sama nasib
jangan takut sama bos
jangan takut berbuat salah
karena diatasnya, masih banyak bos bos lainnya...

kalo gak naik naik juga
coba deh cara lain
mungkin memang harus bikin piramida sendiri
dan pastikan anda ada diposisi puncaknya.

*cheers

2011-11-10T18:13:00.000-08:00

~ Pelampiasan ~

Setiap orang punya batas toleransi terhadap stress masing masing
ada yang tinggi sekali sehingga selalu tampak happy
ada yang rendah sekali sehingga kelihatan selalu emosian
tapi ada juga yang sebenernya punya batas rendah, tapi tidak pernah diperlihatkan
ujungnya, meletus, is det....

sebaiknya, semua orang harus belajar teknik pelampiasan yang baik dan benar
stress itu nggak baik, tapi diperlukan, dan harus dilampiaskan

saya punya cara tersendiri untuk melampiaskan stress
biasanya saya maen game komputer
atau pergi jalan2 keluar kota
pokoknya mengerjakan sesuai yang relaxing
tanpa harus kembali kedunia yang penuh stress

lamanya pelampiasan bermacam macam
kadang perlu seharian penuh untuk melepas stress
tapi malah kadang perlu seminggu full
tergantung penyebab stressnya

pelampiasan itu sebaiknya rutin
sehingga sisa sisa stress bisa ikut kebuang

coba deh
jangan disimpen aja tuh stress
daripada meletus
trus... is det

*cheers

2011-11-09T18:15:00.000-08:00

~ Pahlawan ~

Hari ini adalah hari pahlawan
sebagian orang memperingatinya dengan upacara bendera, ziarah makam, atau mengunjungi sisa para pejuan tanah air.
sebagian lainnya, tetap sibuk bergelut dengan kehidupannya masing-masing, berusaha menjadi pahlawan bagi perusahaannya, keluarganya, maupun diri sendiri.

Sudah jelas bahwa pahlawan negara adalah yang berjuang demi negara
namun, apa kriteria kita sudah sukses menjadi pahlawan bagi diri kita sendiri?

ada beberapa sisi yang bisa dipergunakan untuk melihat kepahlawanan diri kita sendiri:

1. Pengendalian Diri
Apakah kita sudah mampu mengendalikan diri kita menuju kearah yang kita cita citakan?
Ataukah tiap harinya kita semakin menjauh dari impian kita?

2. Kepuasan Batin
Apakah kita selalu mengejar kepuasan batin dalam mengerjakan pekerjaan sehari-hari?
ataukah kita melacurkan diri dan melupakan kepuasan batin demi sanjungan atau pandangan orang lain pada kita?

Berhentilah sejenak untuk merenung hari ini.
bayangkan cita-cita dan impian yang selalu kita inginkan dan idamkan
bayangkan bahwa kita mendekat atau menjauh dari impian tersebut

Berhentilah sejenak untuk menghayati makna hidup ini.
bayangkan kebahagiaan yang kita inginkan dalam pekerjaan, bisnis, usaha kita
bayangkan bahwa kita dengan bahagia menjalankan profesi kita tanpa ada paksaan apapun

jadikanlah hidup yang singkat ini hidup yang bermakna
hidup yang mempunyai tujuan
hidup yang menyenangkan
dan kitapun akan menjadi pahlawan bagi diri kita sendiri.

*cheers

2011-11-08T19:10:00.000-08:00

~ Adu Otot ~

sudah menjadi hal yang mendasar bagi manusia untuk bertarung
dalam mencari makanan
dalam mempertahankan wilayah
maupun untuk dapat berkembang biak

semakin modern, pertarungan itu semakin melunak
kalo dulu masih pake batu, pedang, panah...
kalo sekarang, pake tulisan, diskusi, dan politisasi...
ujung ujungnya sama aja, ada pemenang, dan ada yang kalah

yang menang pulang bawa kebanggaan dan hadiah lainnya
yang kalah biasanya nangis dipojokan menangisi nasibnya

lalu apakah kita harus selalu menang?
apakah selalu yang terhebat, terkuat, terpandai yang harus jadi pemenangnya?

Tuhan Maha Adil...
Rejeki tidak akan tertukar
ingatlah wahai kawan...

yang menang sekarang mungkin besok tidak akan pernah menang lagi... selamanya
yang kalah, mungkin sebentar lagi akan menang mutlak...

lalu kita harus bagaimana?

berusahalah setiap saat dengan usaha terbaik
Rejeki tidak akan tertukar
ingatlah wahai kawan...

*cheers...

2011-11-07T23:52:00.001-08:00

~ Dadu ~

Jika kita lihat kehidupan ini dengan teliti
kita akan menemukan banyak ketidak pastian
tidak pernah ada hasil yang sama diraih oleh usaha yang sama
banyak faktor yang selalu berperan dalam kehidupan

seperti orang yang berjudi
dia akan melempar dadu dan mengundi hasilnya
kadang tebakannya berhasil, dan menang taruhan
kadang tebakannya salah, dan kalah taruhan

Kehidupan juga laksana dadu tadi itu
bagaimana dia dikocok atau dimulai, mempengaruhi hasil akhir
bagaimana dia dilempar atau dijalani, mempengaruhi hasil akhir
bagaimana dia jatuh atau diakhiri, juga mempengaruhi hasil akhir

semua proses mempengaruhi hasil akhir...
tinggal bagaimana kita memulai, menjalani dan mengakhirinya saja
dan pada akhirnya, tinggal membandingkan hasil yang dicapai dengan tujuan yang dimaksud

jika belum puas?
kocok dan lemparkan kembali dadu tadi...

salam optimis

2011-11-07T00:34:00.000-08:00

~ Aneh ~

Definisi aneh itu bisa luas, bisa juga spesifik
aneh identik dengan beda, unik, khas...
masing masing definisi punya arti sendiri
intinya, sesuatu yang berbeda, punya ciri khas sendiri, dan bisa dilihat secara unik, bisa dikatakan aneh

ada aneh positive, ada juga aneh negative

aneh positive adalah jika perbedaan, ciri khas dan keunikan dapat diartikan secara yang baik baik
misalnya, dengan keanehan yang dimiliki seseorang, dia bisa melakukan sesuatu yang bermanfaat bagi orang lain

sedangkan aneh negative adalah jika perbedaan, ciri khas dan keunikan tadi diartikan secara jelek
misalnya, seseorang bertingkah aneh yang tidak disukai orang lain, sehingga dijauhi

memang tulisan ini aneh
karena memang ditulis oleh orang aneh
dan anehnya masih dibaca juga?

ngga papa, sekedar berbagi ajah.

*cheers

2011-11-03T19:46:00.000-07:00

~ Semangat ~

Semangat itu ibarat ombak di tepi pantai
kadang bertubi tubi menerjang dan menghantam
tapi kemudian harus surut kembali ke lautan

Semangat itu bisa diarahkan
tapi kadang juga bisa lepas kendali

Banyak kita lihat orang-orang sukses di luar sana
mereka dapat dengan mudah mengendalikan semangat mereka
membuat terus berkobar membara
seakan tidak akan pernah padam
tapi jangan salah
beberapa dari mereka, malah lalu kehilangan kendali
kemudian depresi dan akhirnya gantung diri

Atau kalau kita lihat orang yang... yah biasa biasa aja
semangat mereka ada, tapi tidak dikobarkan..
mereka lebih banyak mengikuti keadaan dibanding harus membakar semangat membara
yah imbalannya, mereka tidak dapat apa apa
tapi batin tenang, dan hidup damai dengan bersyukur

Jadi yang paling penting adalah kemana semangat ini mau kita arahkan
lalu, kendalikan semangat tersebut
jangan sampai berkobar lalu kebakaran...
atau surut, padam, dan tidak pernah bersinar...
Maka, jagalah api semangat... biar tetap menerangi hati dan kehidupan kita

Semangat selalu,

ANursatria

2009-02-15T18:47:00.000-08:00

"Photography is your thing"
"You were a photographer ever since I've met you for the first time"
"You abandon being photograper because you spent most of your time with other thing"

today
a photographer reborn
&DEE-K

2009-02-08T20:06:00.000-08:00

~ Between Success, Purpose, and Impulse ~

What is success?
An event that accomplishes its intended purpose (wordnet.princeton.edu)
What is purpose?
An anticipated outcome that is intended or that guides your planned actions (wordnet.princeton.edu)
What is action without purpose?
Impulse: Urge, an instinctive motive (wordnet.princeton.edu)

Am I there yet?

2009-01-28T18:09:00.000-08:00

~ Maelstrom ~

Early spring, the water froze. Touch of winter lingers, adding the cold to the morning sun.
Eyes drifted from shore to shore. Wondering, pondering, of nothing in particular.
The cross road is still there. Waiting, ready to be chose. Decide or wait?

Early spring, the air still chilled. The ray spreads among the haze, the winter haze.
Mind travels, faster than the speed of light. But still have no clue, on what, or where.
The cross road lay still. Like a booby trap. Ready to be sprang. Swallow it’s pray, as a whole.

Now, why?
What and where...

I can see it clearly, the present
I can think of it clearly, the present
But the future is in God's hand

Then, why?
What and where...

The crossroad
Of opportunity

2008-12-01T17:26:00.000-08:00

"It took only one deed to show an enemy, but it will take many to show a friend"

The Companion
Dragonlance

2008-09-23T20:05:00.000-07:00

Mami...

Selamat Ulang Taun

Semoga Panjang Umur

Sehat dan Bahagia Selalu

Banyak Rejeki dan Selalu Bagi Bagi Sama Suami...

Amin.

2008-09-03T19:47:00.000-07:00

~ Mommy's ~

She's soo like mommy
walk like mommy
talk like mommy
even dress like mommy

that night
she slept
with her swimming suit on
and nothing else

She's soo mommy

2008-09-03T19:12:00.001-07:00

~ The Bad ~

She looked at me
frowned
I know that she know
I was angry

She walked away
frowned
She looked at me
I know that she know

She took the toy she used
to knock her big sister
frowned
she looked at me

Apologetically she kissed her big sister
frowned
she looked at me
begging for mercy

2008-08-19T00:48:00.000-07:00

~ Girls... They Love Birds ~

Wake em up
all two of em
still sleepy
but I bathed em anyway

Fed em up
all two of em
one got cranky
But managed to finished em anyway

girls... girls...
get em see birds
love every bit of it
girls... girls...

girls... girls...
they love birds
cant you tell?
girls... girls...

the red, green, and blue cackatoos
the big tall king fishers
the fat and funny penguins
the skinny but colorful flamingos

and the duck
the ugly dirty duck
the one swimming at the entrance
the one that does nothing but swimming

girls...
three years and one year old they are
my girls...
they love birds

2008-08-18T22:22:00.001-07:00

~ Si Jago Bahasa Inggris ~

Mami: Dedi !!... karina sudah jago bahasa inggrisnya !!
Dedi: Wah !! hebat sekali... coba karina, mana dedi pengen denger...
Karina: I want to pee...

2008-08-12T20:25:00.000-07:00

~ Planning an Adventure ~

Annual Leave Request - submitted
Airplane Ticket - issued
Hotel - waiting for confirmation
Pocket Money - waiting for confirmation
Trip Plan - waiting for confirmation
Fun to be Had - worth every penny and second spent

Are we there yet?

2008-08-06T21:05:00.001-07:00

~ Kamus Bayi - Indonesia ~

Khakawl / Khakang = Nakal
Khaka = kakak
Jheji / Dhedei = Dedi
Mamama = Mami
Mamam = Minum / Makan
bhapa' = Bapak
Aeng = Eyang
tetee = Teteh (pengasuh)
Na' = Mona (pengasuh)
Phapam = Satpam
Is = Jais (supir) / Supir / Sakit / semua yang ada S-nya
ta' = tidak / nggak / kereta
heh = iya / mau
Te' = Tante
Ca = baca

2008-07-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

~ Little Feet goes Round~

Little feet goes round and round
Have to play
Must play
Sleep is only for babies

Little feet goes round and round
This look funny
Play a bit here
Maybe if could always keep my eyes open...

Little feet goes round and round
Well, this one is funnier than that one
Play a bit here
Maybe if I pull it here and push it there...

Little feet goes round and round
This one looks yummy
That one too
Maybe if I put everything together in my mouth...

Why Daddy always says no?
Why Mommy always says no?
No no no no no...
Always no...

and the Little feet goes round again
Play here and there
Eat everything and all
and No no no... follows as always

2008-07-17T19:11:00.000-07:00

~ Morning with Daddy ~

Sit on his lap
playing with the steer
turn left, turn right
honk a bit... boing boing
ouch... daddy wouldn't let me

playing with the steer again
turn left , turn right
daddy's hands on mine
as always
to protect me... he said

pull the shiny stick on the right
blinking light... funny
pull the shiny stick on the left
water squirted...all getting wet
ouch... daddy wouldn't let me

One round, before I go to work
as he always says
what is work?
I only know play...
maybe they are the same

honk a bit again... boing boing
ouch... daddy wouldn't let me
"Nakal..." he said
"Kakawl..." I replied
boing...

2008-07-13T23:26:00.000-07:00

~ Welcome to Life ~

The seeds were mine
I planted them
I pour water on them
take care of them, sing them
even put my life on the line just for them

The seeds were growing
bigger everyday
as I kept the water flown
the air warm
sings some songs
and as always kept my watchful eyes

Spring came knock on my door
The seeds were no longer seeds
thriving greens, with yellowish shoots
the water, the air, and my songs
nourished and nurtured the younglings

Welcome to life
Let your leaves catch sun's ray
Let your roots drink flowing water
let you grow high then your flowers may bloom
blossom, and let other smell your rossy scent
shine, and let other see your true color

My Daughters...

2008-05-15T18:04:00.000-07:00

~ All and the What Not ~

when we first met
I was the one who talked too much
told her everything I've done
and all the what not

She listened

Years gone by
I was still the one who talked too much
told her everything I did
and all the what not

She listened

then we got married
things changed
I listened to everything she said she did
and all the what not

She kept on talking

then we got kids
things got complicated
I listened to everything she and our kids said they did
and all the what not

and They kept on talking
and talking
and talking
and talking

All and the what not

2008-04-20T21:31:00.000-07:00

~ Ibu Kartini ~

Mari kita hormati semangat perjuangan Ibu Kartini
Membela hak hak kaum wanita Indonesia
untuk bebas dari belenggu kebodohan
penjajahan intelektual
dan perampasan hak untuk hidup mandiri

maka dari itu
berlibur lah hai kaum pria!!
bersenang senanglah kita hari ini!!
kita dukung dan hormati hak hak kaum wanita
untuk belajar sepuas puasnya
untuk bekerja semaju majunya
agar sama hak kita
sesuai yang mereka idamkan dan cita citakan

Terima kasih Ibu Kartini

tanpamu,
istri kita hanya sibuk dirumah
gaji kita hanya cukup sampai akhir bulan
dan kita sibuk ditelponin..."Papa, kapan pulang?"

Terima kasih Ibu Kartini

Kau beri kami inspirasi
untuk libur satu hari
semoga bos merestui.

2008-04-09T23:28:00.000-07:00

~ Alam Tinggi yang Sangat ~

kadang hidup ini
bagai disuruh
membunuh gajah
dengan tusuk gigi

kadang hidup ini
bagai disuruh
mengail bintang
sambil duduk diawan

kadang pula hidup ini
bagai disuruh
duduk disinggasana
namun perut kelaparan

***

Istriku berkata
"Kanda, kembalilah dari alam mimpi"
"Kanda, kembalilah ke sini"
"ke pelukan hangatku, ditemani kecupan sayang anak anak kita"

***

Dan aku pun terbangun...
di sudut tempat tidur yang paling pinggir
istriku diujung sana, juga terpojok
dan kedua anakku...
mereka menguasai tempat tidur kita

2008-04-07T01:55:00.000-07:00

Di report karin tertulis...

Karina sudah dapat membedakan binatang

Karin: "kalo yang sayapnya dibelakang itu butterfly"
Karin: "kalo yang sayapnya disamping itu burung"

***

Berarti Karina sudah tau ciri-ciri binatang...
coba dedi tes dengan SAPI...

Dedi: "Karina, kalo yang badannya besar ada susunya apa?"
Karin: "mami..."

2008-04-07T01:40:00.000-07:00

Quote yang sangat bagus...

"Hari ini kita mau jadi si Ceria atau si Cemberut...?"

2008-03-09T23:11:00.000-07:00

~ Keajaiban Sebuah Kerang ~

Hanya dalam satu malam
seorang Kalina
bisa berubah menjadi Karina
hanya karena sebuah Kerang
...

2008-03-04T23:23:00.000-08:00

~ The Importance of Non Academic Financial Certification ~

Too bad,
Having a lot of money doesn't guarantee you to obtain any Financial Certification

Likewise,
Having a lot of Financial Certfication doesn't mean that you have or even will accumulate a lot of money... in your lifetime

Life suck, I'm hungry...

2008-03-03T16:50:00.000-08:00

~ Lamunan Pagi Hari ~

ada kalanya cinta membutakan mata
menulikan telinga dan membisukan mulut
namun ada kalanya cinta juga bisa
membuat semua yang benar menjadi salah
semua yang tinggi menjadi rendah
dan semua yang baik menjadi sangat sangat buruk

seperti misalnya minggu lalu
dimana kita dilanda cinta
semua terasa sangat indah
hari terasa begitu lama
senyuman dan tawa
menghiasi setiap sudut hati kita

namun lihatlah minggu ini
minggu yang diawali dengan amarah
minggu yang dimulai dengan dengki
minggu penuh dengan kebencian
akhirnya semua diam membisu
karena diam lebih baik
daripada memanaskan matahari yang tengah terik membakar

akankah kita akan terus diam membisu
atau harus berusaha memaksa bulan terbit lebih dini?

2008-03-03T01:50:00.000-08:00

~ Persistence ~

I was the one who insisted
that she can do it
she must do it
and she will do it now

I was the one who forcefully
let her do it
coz I know she can
and she will do it now

soon, but not yet
everyone keep saying
soon, but not now
they keep arguing

and they keep defending her
they keep her away
from trying from believing
that she can do it

I was the one who said now
and now is the time
cos she is ready
as she always had

***

No, she did not make her first step
yet
No, she did not stand up for the first time
yet
but she tried
willingly she tried
straightened her legs
she pull herself up

***

however,
she kept me smiling all night long...

2008-02-28T17:19:00.000-08:00

~ The Little One ~

She looked deep into my eyes
slowly she crawled
her infantly gesture said
"Daddy, Mia sick..."

Instantly I understand
Instantly I know
Instantly I decided
"Mia, I will give you love you always wanted"

I embraced her all night long
I loved her with all my heart
till the darkness of the night
took her illness
rejuvinated her
let the tiny smiles
shines again on her little pinky lips

and her infantly gesture says as it always says
"Daddy, I love you..."

2008-02-20T17:51:00.000-08:00

~ Morning Energy Booster ~

I kiss my wife
Every morning
Before I go out
Earning money

2008-01-08T23:07:00.000-08:00

Sing it...

***

Aku anak Indonesia
anak yang merdeka
satu nusaku
satu bangsaku
satu bahasaku
Indonesia
Indonesia
aku bangga menjadi
anak Indonesia...

***

We stop singing that song when we left school...
when we think that we are free
free of tedious homework
free of teacher and parent guidance
free to do anything

but looky here my friend
look at the truth behind our freedom
we are living in the most corrupt country in the world
we are facing a social conflict, in a verge of racial revolution
hell yeah... I even write in someone else's language.

now why in the world I am saying this?

all because I want to sing the song to my lovely daughters
teach them about the real freedom
let them know honesty
let them know compassion
and let them grow in peace

To parents and teachers...
we salute you all for teaching your children
songs...
about our country
about our nation
about our people

live peace and live free...

2008-01-01T17:13:00.000-08:00

~ My Daughter ~

She wishpered
"Dedi, sakit pelut..."
She lay there
Sad and powerless

I think I did everythink I could
but deep inside me said otherwise
I wish I get her to the doctor earlier
I wish I get her medicine sooner

Or was it too late?

She wishpered again
"Dedi, Kalin muntah..."
nothing came out
all was wasted in previous vomiting series

I think I was the worst daddy ever lived
I think I was guilty, very guilty...
I pinched her ear coz she wouldnt eat
I yelled at her coz she vomit alot

Did I know that she was sick?

***

Finally,
I brought her to a doctor
I bought her a good medicine
she still vomit, but shes getting better

as a guilty conscience
I carry her to the plane
I hug her, I embrace her
like a new born she once was

as a guilty conscience
I tell her story she always liked
I kiss her tempel and wishpered
"Karina, maafin daddy yah... daddy sayang karin"

***

days passed
smilingly she came to me and said
"Dedi, tos idung..."
"tuing...tuing..."

2007-12-14T00:44:00.000-08:00

~ Strange Sisters ~

She is so happy today
new toy in her hand
it was a handheld fan
and she plays it lovingly

***

"Kalin, tawarin dede mau pinjem?"
I said to her
pointing at her sister

***

she looked at her sister and said
"Dede mau pinjem ini?"
handing over the bright yellow fan
to her sister

***

her sister, half understand
move her hand slowly to grab the fan

***

Quickly she pull the fan
and said
"Dedenya nggak mau tuh di"

***

her sister, half understand
yawned and went on her regular sightseeing

2007-12-12T22:03:00.000-08:00

~ Baby in Red ~

She is six now
yes, six months that is
she can't talk yet
but yells alot

She is my second
pointy nose
lovely smile
she looks pretty in red

She plays with everything
her sister's toys
her mommy's dvds
and even my socks

Although I felt some distance between me and her
I tried hard to keep us close
I kissed her every morning and at night
Talked to her and tell her I love her

She is six now
and she is my second
Though she can't talk yet
I have her voice deep in my heart

2007-12-11T17:19:00.000-08:00

~ Confession of a Criminal ~

I confess
I yelled at her
I twisted her ear
I pinched her arm

I was angry when I did that
or maybe I have power over her
or maybe it was my ego
or maybe I am the worst daddy ever

Then she hated me
she wont kiss me anymore
she wont play with me anymore
she said "Kalin nggak sayang dedi"

I am sorry my little one
I confess I made mistakes
I am sorry my little angel
I confess I was a criminal

I said to her I was sorry
I said to her she can be angry with me
I said to her I will never do that anymore
I love her

She love me too
she kisses me whenever I asked
she plays with me, or teaches me how to play with her
she said "Kalin sayang dedi"

I confess I was a criminal
but I'm going to change that
For I'm her one and only daddy
and will be the best daddy ever!!!

2007-10-29T17:07:00.000-07:00

~ Young Storyteller ~

Kan gini citanya
kemalin ada gajah
gajahnya mau makan kacang
telus dikasihin sama kucing
telus gajahnya seneng
abis itu kucingnya main sama gajah
main tulis tulis
main tempel tempel
telus gajahnya bobo deh
telus... dedi mau di cita-in apalagi?

2007-08-30T18:01:00.000-07:00

~ True Love ~

He was in his fifties
strong arms, well build
with thick moustache across his upper lip
Looks so happy in his mid life

at his age
I bet others will be busy with their life
playing fancy games and what not
chasing maidens for an affairs

but this one is different
specially on this warm shinny sunset
and very different
cos he was smiling a different smile

merrily he walks across the street
singing softly love song he always sings
hands holding tight
on a push chair his wife sitting in

unable to walk, stand, or even move
crippled, paralyzed, unable even to talk
she was enjoying her rid
all she can do left was only smile

her husband
proud and happy
love her very much
love her deeply

I can tell from his smile
and her smile
merrily walks across the street
singing softly love songs he always sings

2007-08-29T18:03:00.000-07:00

~ What's Up Last Night ~

when the mood was right
when time was perfect
when you and me were together
I just can't spit it out

You know what I was going to say
You know what I wanted
and you know that I knew what you want
but I just can't spit it out

One wrong move
One wrong action
one slip tongue
good thing went bad

just like a tug of war
I pull it here
you pull it there
just like a game no one can win

just like blaming game
I blame you
You blame me
just like a game no one would loose

I was angry
You were angry
our children sleeps quitly
know nothing about you and me

should I say sorry?
about a thing I knew not?
or should I ask you to say sorry?
and I know you wouldn't

or...
can we just give a smile to each other
forget the past so I can spit it out aloud
I LOVE YOU

2007-08-10T02:24:00.000-07:00

~ Two Sides Mirror ~

He was enjoying his smoke
sat lazily in the corner of the street
watching passer by as they hurried in their busy life
He was enjoying his life

He was in his 30 i believed
strong arm and muscular body
people might call him a thug for his features
He was still young, too young to enjoy life as he was

That might be my harsh opinion
or maybe I was correct?
for what I saw...
He was smoking like there'll be no tomorrow

Some people were busy doing what others tell them to do
Some people were busy telling others what to do
Some people were busy doing what they think they should do
They were all busy making a living

Let's just say that he has millions of dollar in his bank account
so that he wont bug anyone for his pleasures
Let's just say that I was jealous because I am still doing what others tell me to do
and always pretends that it is ok to be always being told

now what...
he is a rich man enjoying his happy life
and I am a pity little creature picking up whatever trash people threw at me
am I miserable or what?

2007-08-08T19:18:00.000-07:00

~ It was Supposed to ~

I know it was going to be a busy day
tight schedule, too many meetings
so much things to do, so little time
I rushed my car through the famous traffic jam of Jakarta

Dodged an aged old car
I put up some more speed
Dodged a bike with too many people on it
I put up some more speed

I knew I was too fast
I needed to be fast
I was too in a hurry
Until something flashed in front of me

!Bam! I said to myself
!Bam! was what I expected
there this guy, stand in front of my car
lucky him, my brake worked

Thousands of yells and Millions of swears
readied themselves to be bursted out of my dirty mouth
but the lucky guy, wave his hand to me, and smiled
slowly he crossed the street, with his smile still on his face

That busy day
was instantly turned
into a happy day
...imagine what smile can do to you?

2007-08-08T18:31:00.000-07:00

~ Baja ~

"Baja, dihasilkan dari biji besi yang sangat keras"
"Dicampur dengan biji metal lainnya"
"Kemudian dipanaskan dengan suhu yang sangat tinggi hingga melunak"
"Lalu ditempa bertubi tubi dan dibentuk menjadi baja"

*Diambil dan diterjemahkan dari novel Soulforge oleh Margaret Weiss and Tracy Hickmann

***

Dua bidadari kecil yang lucu
yang besar dua tahun umurnya
yang kecil dua bulan umurnya
Dua duanya kesayangan

Kakeknya bilang "Sekolahnya harus go international!!!"
Neneknya bilang "Harus berkualitas dan bermutu!!!"
Kakeknya yang lain bilang "Harus berisi anak-anak pintar untuk bersaing!!!"
Neneknya yang lain bilang "Kalau perlu yang paling mahal dan berkelas!!!"

Kulihat istriku disampingku
tidak banyak berucap dan sangat penurut
dan Ia pun berkata
"Aku hanya ingin agar jika mati nanti, anakku akan selalu mendoakanku"

***

Sekolah ada proses penempaan individu
bagaikan baja yang kokoh,
Individu yang kuat adalah hasil tempaan pelajaran hidup yang keras

2007-08-08T17:17:00.000-07:00

~ My Empty Belly ~

They say I'm a lucky guy
travel the world far and wide
been here done that
Just to satisfy my empty belly

They say not many men like me
with tons of money
and limitless spare time
Just to satisfy my empty belly

Wise man say
You eat to live
I live to eat
Just to satisfy my empty belly

after hundreds of roasted ducks
after thousands of grilled lambs
and millions of T-bone steaks fiestas
I couldn't yet satisfy my empty belly

***

She is two now
she talk like a grown up
and act like one
she my oldest daughter

she is eating a cheap rice cake
its not the best food around
but she is eating it lusciously
she is eating it appetizingly

she looked at me and walked to me
she tripped and the rice cake fell from her hand
abit dirty, she picked up the rice cake
she looked at me and hand me the rice cake
"Ini untuk daddy"

***

After hundreds of roasted ducks
After thousands of grilled lambs
and millions of T-bone steaks fiestas
a cheap rice cake, with a bit dirt on it
successfuly satisfied my laughing belly

2007-08-05T23:59:00.001-07:00

Its been awhile since I updated this log.
so many ideas went by
too many
here they go

2007-05-08T19:11:00.000-07:00

~ Don't Get Angry ~

So sick she was last night
puke all over her
smelly, and still half asleep
she cried, fearing I get angry

I took her to bathroom
wash her all up
the water was cold
and she was crying out loud

I tried to calm her
tell her not to cry anymore
tell her I wouldn't mad at her
if she stop crying

at last she stopped
she looked at me
smiling she said
"Daddy baik yah..."

there...
she sleep soundly
smile still on her face
and on mine as well

2007-05-04T03:15:00.000-07:00

~ Friday Prayer ~

try talking with your mouth shut
try looking with your eyes closed
try to lick your elbow, or your back
now thats what I'm feeling now

Be happy with what you got
and let God take care the rest.

2007-05-02T22:57:00.000-07:00

~ Another Premonition ~

Last night,
I was dreaming about him
he passed away awhile ago
but his smile still lingers on my mind

I was dreaming about him
we play and laugh together
like we used to
since we were a little

I asked him
"How is the world you living in now?"
"Do you see ghost? demon? anything scary?"
"How do you feel?"

With smile on his face he said
"I dont see ghost or anything..."
"Its just, I cant tell day or night anymore"
"But I feel fine, I feel great"

with that, he showed me what he could
he can be at places at one time
he can be many, and nothing at once
he is playful like he used to

***

Today,

two of my friends lost their father

Rest in Peace

2007-04-22T20:51:00.000-07:00

~The Fish Story ~

There were only two fish on the table
Not expensive fish I usually eat
nor they were special
they were just plain ordinary mujaer fish

looking at those fish,
we sat across from each other
our love was true
promised to live happily ever after

It wasn't the fish that matter
as they lay still deep fried on the table
nor was the veggies decorating the plate
It was you, and you matter to me most

You gave birth to my daughter
and still carry my future child in your womb
Yet, never have I give a day of my life
just for you, whatever you want me to do, just for you

You obey my order
every detail of it
yet, look at plain ordinary mujaer fish on the table
those I gave you on a sunday lunch

I may be the worst husband of all
But I always give the best of me for you
as I love you
and always will.

2007-04-22T20:39:00.000-07:00

~ Kayak Tante Tante ~

yesterday was her day
happy and playful
singing everywhere she went
It was her day

"Kayak tante tante"
holding mommy's bag
"Kayak tante tante"
merrily looking at mirror

she went and grab a hat
put it on her head
still holding mommy's bag she mumbled
"kayak tante tante"

she put the hat and the bag down
went and grab daddy's watch
put it on her wrist she said
"Kayak om om"

she looked at me,
looking at my watch on her
and gave me my watch, she said
"pake daddy aja"

she went and again grab the bag and the hat
she wore all and back looking at the mirror
smiled she said
"Kayak tante tante"

2007-04-17T20:56:00.000-07:00

~ Angels and Their Playing Time ~

Night was still young
she stood next to me
played with God knows what
mumbling unintelligibly

at first I thought she was singing
nope, she wasn't
or maybe she was praying
nope, didn't sound like the one she knows

"mika..Allo... uma... aya... mika...amut"
that was the only pray she knows... so far
but this wasn't it
it sounds more like...

"main ail sama daddy..."
"tumpah ailnya..."
"basah semua ya..."
"kena tas daddy ya..."

suddenly I realize
she poured her milk into my cup
water and milk spilled all over
and my laptop bag right in the middle of the puddle

I grab the bag
water all over
tried hard to get it dry
and she said

"Untung hape daddy nggak kena yah..."

there...
the soakin wet little angel of mine
stood next to my handphone
smiling.

2007-04-17T19:22:00.000-07:00

~ At the Store ~

I took her to her favorite store
where she usually stood by fish tank
watch the fish swimming around
until drool wet all over her lips

She hold my hand and said
"Daddy, mau pastik aja"

I understood, and gave her a plastic bag
she slip her hand into the plastic bag

she hold my hand again and said
"Daddy, pake pastik juga"

I understand, and took a plastic bag
slip my hand into the plastic bag

softly she said
"Salim..."
"tuk..."

2007-04-17T19:15:00.000-07:00

~ The Side Effect of Guessing ~

today...
I flunked my first GMAT test

rest in peace my bad grade
may never see you again

2007-04-10T19:34:00.000-07:00

~ On a Holiday ~

We stood there together
In the railway station
on a holiday morning
among thousands of travellers

her eyes were busy
watching people as they go by
studying them one by one
she was excited

a bell rang through the air
she recognized it instantly
she screamed
"Kayak lumah opung... ya?"

second later, a train went through
right in front of us
running without stopping
leaving dust and smoke

she was happy
but it was too short
the train was too fast
"dada... kleta api"

then another train went through
again running without stopping
leaving dust and smoke
and one sad little baby

She said
"kleta api... sini aja..."
"kalin mau pegang dulu ya..."
waving her hand at the run away train

***

She slept soundly in the train
too tired, smile linger on her lips
probably too excited as well

the train ran fast
full of travellers
plus one happy little baby

2007-04-10T00:16:00.000-07:00

~ Game Time ~

I taught the other day
about spoon and fork
about left and right

I know she is a fast learner
fantastic listener
and a perfekt copier

yesterday I tested her
"Karina, ini apa?" holding a spoon on my right
"Sendok" she said firmly

then I asked her again
"Kalo ini, apa?" holding a fork on my left
"Galpu" still firm on her answer

moved to slightly harder question
"Kalo sendok ditangan apa?" I asked
"Kanan!" half screaming

and another one
"kalo garpu ditangan apa?" I asked
"Kili!" screamed louder

Played spoon and fork game
Played left and right game
Karina grew bored and tired

She took the spoon away
She took the fork away
She walked backward
with her eyes closed
hands on her back
hiding spoon and fork
She walked backward
with her eyes closed
didn't listen to Mami's call
didn't listen to Dadi's call
She walked backward
with her eyes closed

till she bumped on something
she fell
and cried
till mami rescued her
hug and pat softly on her back
and tell her
not to walk backward
with her eyes closed

***

They are not only our children
They are Godsend Angels

2007-04-08T23:19:00.001-07:00

~ Curiosity ~

I spoke to him last night
asking question how and when
his reply was short
He said "I did what I was told"

I wouldn't say it was a nightmare
coz it wasn't scary at all
I was just curious
I just want to know

He did what he was always told
here, there, and everywhere
at once
no delay

***

On Saturday Morning
An old Lady passed away
she was a dear friend of my late Grandma
she was related to me
though I'm not sure how

Innalillahi wa innailaihi rojiuun.

***

Death is approaching
sooner or later
how and when
only He knows all.

2007-04-08T23:19:00.000-07:00

~ The Old Lady on My Grandma's House ~

The old lady begin to speak
round, tan and hardened face
sad eyes with a touch of smile
She is as old as my Grandma

She speaks from the heart
straight to mine like my Grandma used to speak
as she speak with her own grandson
one that she never had

She said,
"Your father sat over there"
"He looked at me"
"said nothing, just looking straight at me"

The old lady begin to tremble
"I asked him, what is it master?"
"He said, no... nothing"
"But he keeps staring at me"

She almost cried
fearing she did something wrong
or displease my father
whom she worked for

I know
I said to myself
I understand
and I thank you for it

My Father
missed my Grandma.

2007-03-25T23:01:00.000-07:00

~ Teroris ~

Dan sekali lagi kulihat
Mata yang manis di balik cadar itu
sekali lagi tertipu
rayuan-rayuan bengis mereka

Dan sekali lagi kulihat
Mata kaki putih dan mulus
tidak tertutup celana
cingkrang sedemikian rupa

Mungkin memang surga
yang mereka inginkan
Mungkin memang kedamaian abadi
yang mereka dambakan

Atau sebutan pahlawan jihad?
Atau sebutan martir jaman sekarang?
rela mati demi agama?
rela mati demi kepercayaan?

Ataukah mereka hanya mati sia sia?
demi omong kosong dan janji busuk?
meninggalkan anak istri setia
meninggalkan keluarga yang rela

Ataukah mereka hanya terbuang percuma?
karena dalih dan segala permainan politik?
membunuh mencuri memperkosa
yang akhirnya semua jadi binasa

Sebegitu bodohnya kah kaumku?
sebegitu rendahnya kah saudaraku?

mungkin surga kita berbeda.

2007-03-06T22:56:00.000-08:00

~ Raising the Flag ~

the old man walks slowly
holding a battered flag
eyes full of sorrow
raising flag is what he do best

he wonders recently
strange as it seems
raising flag
almost everyday?

why?
he hadn't raise flag
as much as he did
these days

why?
should the battered flag
being raised more often
that it was previously

and the pole was bended
cause the flag
was always been raised
half way up

2007-02-21T18:31:00.000-08:00

~ Again ~

last night...
I had a dream
some of my teeth
fell apart

they crumbled
and fell on my hand

I looked on my hand
and they were there

each tooth
broke into pieces

was it an Ill Omen?
a sign of Bad Luck?
or was it just a product
of too much sugar before bedtime?

only time will tell
and Allah is the most Gracious

2007-02-13T18:02:00.000-08:00

~Valentine~

jangan takut
kalau mau bilang sayang
jangan takut
kalau mau minta peluk
jangan takut
kalau mau juga dicium
kalau takut
kamu bisa gigit jari

Orang bilang
sayang itu hak semua orang
Orang bilang
peluk itu menenangkan
Orang bilang
cium itu menyenangkan
aku bilang
asal jangan cuman sekali

2007-02-06T17:37:00.000-08:00

in the darkest night
she said

"Mami... me-es dulu.."

2007-01-30T22:30:00.000-08:00

~ Bed Time Songs ~

*
and her little lips started to sing her favorite song

tik tik tik....ujan....ting
air...uun....iaaa
....engok!....ting........mua....

*
she paused for awhile
and sing another song

bulung...kakak...uaa...

hinggap...dela
nenek...uaa...
hinggap...dela
nenek...uaa...
hinggap...dela

*
she frowned and confused
frustrated she said

acun...nia...
(translated: Racun Dunia)

2007-01-25T23:14:00.000-08:00

~ His Little Business ~

He was only four
when his hand touched mine
still a little baby
but knows the worth of money

running here and there
renting prayer mat
running here and there
offering to polish people's shoes

one to two thousand
for each rented mat
one to two thousand
for each pair of polished shoes

Small as he was
he know where the big money is

Small as he was
he always smile when he see me

Farhan is eight now
still running his little business
and still smiling when I handed my five thousand
to his little hand

2007-01-22T01:10:00.000-08:00

~My Father the Wise ~

My Father Said
"Wherever you go"
"Whatever you do"
"Always wear expensive underwear"

***

The first thing the doctor look when you got into an accident
is your underwear

"Oh My God (OMG)... its a Gucci!"
"Send him to VVIP Room!!!"

otherwise... they will let you rot in the waiting room

***

My Father the Wise

2007-01-18T19:26:00.000-08:00

~ Lesson #1: Identifying Color ~

It is written on the report:

"Hari ini Karina sudah dapat mengidentifikasi kotak berwarna merah dan bundaran berwarna merah"

***

I picked up her red stuffed monkey
and asked her...
"Karina... warna monyet ini apa?"

***

"Kuning..."

2007-01-18T17:25:00.000-08:00

~ Sad Eyes ~

in between her sniff and sigh
she peek at me
casting her fearful glance
hands on her eyes

in between her sniff and sigh
she was scared
she was afraid
of me

she cried and she cried that night
fearing my anger
fearing my temper
and the thought that I would leave her

for good.

***

"Sayang... cep cep..."
"Jangan nangis lagi..."
"Udah, deddy nggak marah lagi kok"
"Deddy sayaaaang banget sama kamu..."

***

and she looked at me and said
"Deddy... Kalen... nggak... nakal... lagi..."

2007-01-18T17:01:00.000-08:00

~ The World of My Little One ~

in the world of greens and blues
I heard her laughter
her joy
smiled all over the place

in the world of greens and blues
her eyes shine brightly
playful
always want to have more

there she swim
there she dance
eager to try
willing to experience

in the world of greens and blues
there she whishes
there she whisper
daddy... I love you

2007-01-10T18:27:00.000-08:00

This one was special for my lovely wife for our first wedding anniversary...

~ Would You Like to Grow Old with Me? ~

If we grow old together
We’ll make a garden of our own
Full of flowers, birds and rabbits
And all for you and me

If we grow old together
We’ll be happy with our family
A lot of children, sons, daughters
And plenty grandchildren

But if we grow old together
Would you stand me?
My attitude, my behavior,
And all those little things that upset you

And if we grow old together
Would you hate me if I left you alone?
Left you without saying goodbye
Even though you know I will be back soon

Would you like to grow old together?
With me?

I may not hear everything you said
I may not see everything you shown
But I listen
And I care

And those little things that upset you
Really, were meant to make you happy
Like this silly little poem
And the kiss afterward

Happy Anniversary

***

oh yeah... and she loved the kiss too

2007-01-02T23:41:00.000-08:00

~ In the Eyes ~

you should have seen her eyes
when i woke her up and said
"Sayang, Selamat Tahun Baru... bangun yah"
"Bangun... ada kembang api!"

you should have seen her eyes
when she finally awake
though her mind wasnt whole yet
she watched... she examined

you should have seen her eyes
eyes that sparks in every booms and bangs
eyes that shines bright and colorful
eyes that speaks, telling me, she was excited

fire cracks here and there
booms and bangs everywhere
red yellow blue and green
color bright up the night sky

She did not yawned
nor did she dozed
her eyes shines, her hand held mine
she watched... she examined

Then the last boom ended the show
bright red and humongous spark
I whisper softly on her ear
"Sayang... seneng? udah met bobo lagi..."

the she get back sleeping on my lap
her hand still holding mine

***

"Deddy!"
"Kembang!"
"Api!"
"Bagus!"

and her little lips won't stop telling me
how much she loved last night show

Happy New Year

2007-01-02T01:43:00.000-08:00

~ Premonition ~

Couple nights ago i had a dream
the dream scares me
the dream chills me to the bone
the dream... was about a wedding

It was about my cousin
She was married couple months ago
to a good man, a religious man
I pray for their bright future

I dream of her telling me why she wants to get married
she told me she loves him so much
and she wanted to get married as soon as possible
and the wedding should be grandious

and I saw her in her wedding dress
all white
and she looked happy
but I did not her husband...

should I call he?
should I tell her?
should I say something?
or should I do nothing?

do I have a Premonition?

2007-01-02T01:31:00.000-08:00

~ Gelitik Kalbu ~

disebelah kiriku
lelaki kecil dengan sarung merah
kuyakin sarung itu sudah tahunan dipakainya
walau warna masih menyala
namun lusuh, seperti sering dicuci
kuyakin sekarang ia sedang mengimpikan
semoga ceramah cepat usai
agar ia dapat kembali menjajakan dagangannya
untuk makan anak istrinya

disebelah kananku
lelaki setengah baya dengan safari kecoklatan
cincin emas dengan batu permata menghias jemarinya
kumis yang tidak kalah tebal dengan dompetnya
tampak kepalanya bergoyang kedepan dan kebelakang
mungkin menahan kantuk
atau mungkin sedang bermimpi
tentang gajinya yang melimpah
yang ia pun bingung harus dibelikan apa

selagi otakku berputar
selagi mataku berkeliaran
selagi hatiku melanglang
aku bersyukur...

bahwa kita
lelaki kecil dengan sarung merah
lelaki setengah baya dengan safari kecoklatan
dan nurani kecilku yang bisanya ngomong doang

tetap ingat untuk pergi
Jumatan...

2006-12-12T00:16:00.000-08:00

~ Poedjangga Bingung ~

kita pun bingung
seribu bingung

saat kiai kondang dielu-elukan
ia pun mengambil istri muda
istri tua beranak tujuh
hanya mampu meng-iya-kan
dengan dalih... ini sunnah Rasul

saat narkoba diberantas habis
artis bergiliran keluar masuk penjara
habis masa tahanan habis masa percobaan
mereka meledak lebih dahsyat dari sebelumnya
dengan dalih... mereka sudah insyaf

saat berzinah itu haram
lelaki perempuan berebutan melakukannya
jika mereka ketauan
disayang sayang dan dielu-elukan bagai pahlawan
dengan dalih... lelaki dan perempuan juga manusia

nggak papa
nggak masalah
kejujuran bukan lagi segala-galanya
kebaikan bukan lagi segala-galanya
kehormatan bukan lagi segala-galanya

sorga tetap dibawah telapak kaki ibu
dan neraka tetap melekat disamping dosa dosa

2006-12-11T23:54:00.000-08:00

~ Kebingungan Jakarta ~

kadang gua bingung dengan kehidupan di kota jakarta raya ini
ada aja cara orang menghidupi kehidupannya masing masing
dijaman harga meroket dan kebutuhan sama tingginya
ada aja cara supaya rakyat tetap hidup

gua liat penjual rokok di perempatan
dengan cekatan ia hampiri setiap mobil yang berenti
dengan kotak rokok kecil di selempangkan di dadanya
sendal jepit dan kadang topi lusuh
namun mulutnya tak pernah lepas dari rokok...
barang yang seharusnya ia jual

cobalah hitung berapa batang rokok mampu ia jual?
cobalah hitung berapa batang rokok yang ia hisap?
cobalah hitung berapa anaknya dirumah?
hitung... tambah... kurang... kurang... kurang
otak kecilku pun tak mampu meng-impasi-nya

gua liat pejabat gendut di restoran mewah
dengan gaya aristokratnya ia tunjuk makanan-makanan mahal
dengan mulut lebar ia lahap lauk pauk berlimpah
baju batik kadang dengan lambang burung di dada
namun perhatiannya tak pernah ke arah rakyat
orang-orang yang dahulu membuatnya naik ke atas

cobalah hitung berapa besar janjinya sebelum terpilih?
cobalah hitung berapa besar tagihan makan ia sehari hari?
cobalah hitung berapa harga pakaian yang ia kenakan?
hitung... kurang... tambah... tambah.. tambah
otak kecilku pun berteriak menyerah

dan pejabat gendut itu pun berhenti di ujung jalan
kaca mobilnya terbuka
dan bergegas penjual rokok menghampiri
rokok dan uang lusuh berwarna hijau berpindah tangan

2006-12-05T17:01:00.000-08:00

~ Be a Daddy ~

look at the smile on her face
little feet running around and around
explore the world and everything
and she mean everything

those little feet never stop running
hands waving around and around
taking something here and there
and she put them everywhere

I feed her anything she wants
I gave her anything she asked
I did everything just to make her laugh
or at least smile a little

one thing she always wants
one thing she always asks
one thing that makes her smile longer
is the one thing I gave her the less

my attention

2006-12-04T01:39:00.000-08:00

~ Berkah Jumat ~

sendal itu bukanlah sendal baru
bukan pula yang bermerk mewah
bukan sendal gunung, atau sendal bagus lainnya
hanya sepasang sendal jepit swallow

warna merah sengaja kupilih
karena jarang yang memilih
agar tidak cepat hilang pikirku
dan memang cukup bertahan lama

sudah beberapa bulan kusimpan
di bawah meja tempat kerjaku
selalu kupakai
selalu kupergunakan

hari kemarin lain dari biasanya
jumat yang suci kubawa ikut serta
kuambil wudhu dengan khidmat
dan kuletakkan ia di samping sajadahku

berawal dari seorang bapak
dengan meminta ijin, ia meminjam sendalku
dipakai wudhu
lalu diletakkan ditempat semula

kemudia datang bapak lainnya
melihat sendalku, langsung dipinjamnya
dipakai wudhu
lalu diletakkan ditempat semula

begitu pula bapak-bapak seterusnya
namun tanpa meminta ijin
dipakai wudhu
lalu diletakkan ditempat semula

hitungan lima, enam dan tujuh terlewati
pinjaman sendalku silih berganti
sampai sampai aku berpikir...
Terlalu mudah mendapatkan pahala

2006-11-29T17:14:00.000-08:00

~ a little tought of mine ~

will it be my hard earned money?
will it be my life time savings?
will it be my compounded assets?
or nothing at all?

would they praised my name?
sing glorious songs, read some poets
and tell greatst story never ending?
or do nothing at all?

what would be my last gift
when I left this world?
what would they do
when I move to another?

***

and my daughter's smile brightened up my day

2006-11-26T19:20:00.000-08:00

~Kesibukan Sebelum Tidur ~

jemari kecilnya mengusap daguku
"emis..." katanya sambil tersenyum
bukan sayang... itu jenggot
"egot..." katanya lagi sambil tertawa

sambil telentang, kakinya dihentakkan
botol susu tertendang, jatuh ke bawah
"datuh..." dengan tampang bersalah
"dendang..." ketendang maksudnya

sambil sibuk mencari botol dibawah
ia berkata "susu...datuh"
"iya nggak papa sayang... ayo bobo lagi"
lalu ia membalikkan badannya dan rebah disampingku

setengah terlelap ia usap kumisku
"emis..." sambil setengah menutup mata
"kumis sayang..." kataku sambil menusap kepalanya
"bobo..." dan ia pun terlelap

2006-11-16T22:58:00.000-08:00

~ Bisikkan Bisu ~

kuikuti kamu sepanjang hayatku
kusanjung kamu sepenuh hatiku
kubanggakan kamu dan tingkahmu
namun bibirmu terus membisu

berkali kali telah kukatakan
apa yang selalu menjadi dambaan
kata cintamu itulah yang kutunggu
namun bibirmu terus membisu

dulu kamu tak seperti ini
kata cinta kau obral murah
namun waktu sudah berganti
kata bisumu membuatku gundah

***

malam pun telah berganti larut
dan seperti hari hari sebelumnya
kuselimuti tubuhnya sambil mencium dahinya
kubisikkan "aku sayang kamu..."

dan mulutku pun kembali membisu

2006-11-16T17:00:00.000-08:00

~ Jumat ~

Cerah dan sedikit berawan
angin semilir meniup sesekali
berbondong bondong mereka datang
sepatu dan sendal memenuhi halaman

suara air yang tak hentinya
bercipratan membasuh tubuh suci
membersihkan dari keringat kotoran
dan menjernihkan pikiran

Berbondong bondong mereka datang
sepatu dan sendal memenuhi halaman
baris berbaris memenuhi kesucian
serentak semua memenuhi kewajiban

Sambil tersenyum Ia pun berkata
"Hari ini mesjid penuh.."

2006-11-15T20:46:00.000-08:00

~ Swim like a Penguin ~

I am a lonely penguin
far away casted from my flock
alone standing on icy floor
on south pole where cold is my home

fishes are my friends
in my stomach they swim
I eat alot sometimes
when the tides are shallow

ice bears and gigantic whales
they really are a different story
swim ashore they care
invites me to their belly

I am a lonely penguin
far away casted from my flock
call me whenever you see me
I will swim right into your dreams

2006-11-14T19:42:00.000-08:00

~ Renungan di Pagi Hari ~

pertama kali kulihat tukang bubur itu
ramah wajahnya dan gesit gerakannya
tangannya yang lincah dan cekatan
meracik dan menyajikan bubur tuk pelanggan

tekadnya yang tinggi untuk berusaha
dan semangat membara yang menggebu
mengalahkan beratnya himpitan beban
anak dan istri menanti dirumah

tak jarang dengan percuma bubur diberikan
tak jarang harus dagang berpindah pindah
tak jarang panas dan hujan menghentikan langkah
karena ikhlas, ia terus berusaha

empat tahun berlalu kulihat ia masih diujung sana
rama dan gesit tidak berkurang sedikitpun
lincah dan cekatan, ia masih seperti dulu
dan ia masih seperti dulu

apakah dunia memang tidak adil?
empat tahun berlalu dan waktu berlalu?
aku disini dan ia masih seperti dulu?
ataukah aku yang menghukum dunia secara sepihak?

dan sekali lagi kudengar decak kagum
penikmat bubur ayam diujung jalan
kantorku yang sekarang megah mewah
"Emang bubur ini kagak pernah ada yang ngalahin..."

2006-11-13T17:17:00.000-08:00

~ A Walk with My Dad ~

It was years ago
I was not yet a man
not old enough
but I remember

There I was walking with him
holding iron stick
hat on my head
sweat all over me

There I walk beside him
watching what he did
imitating his every move
telling myself, I can do it better than him

***

It was couple days ago
She was not yet a girl
not old enough
but always act like one

There she was walking with me
holding my cell phone
her diaper half full
she drinks alot that day

There she walks beside me
watching what I did
imitating my every move
She must have been thinking, I am better than daddy

she stopped
put cell phone on her face
blinking one eye and she said
(something like) "click..."

2006-11-12T19:02:00.000-08:00

~ Kamus Bahasa Bayi Berenang ~

"ain..."
Air... katanya
"bokobok..."
di kobok kobok... sambil meremas remas air dengan tangannya
"pat... pat"
di ciprat ciprat... sambil menepuk air yang bercipratan
"ujan..."
hujan katanya... ketika ia kecipratan air
"tan... aun"
seperti ikan paus... sambil menyemburkan air dari mulutnya

gemes yah?

2006-11-08T16:58:00.000-08:00

~ Dua Ratus Kata Tentang Anaknya ~

Dan Ia pun terhenti sejenak
matanya berputar
Ia sedang berfikir
setengah melamun setengah mencari jawaban

"Apa yang harus kutulis?"
"Apa yang harus keungkapkan?"
"Apa yang harus aku ceritakan?"
Dua ratus kata tentang anaknya...

***

kaki-kaki kecil itu mendekati ibunya
dengan baju setengah kebesaran
dan kaus kaki yang hampir lepas sebelah
senyum manis dan Ia berkata
"mami... main"

***

dan tangannya pun kembali menulis
"... Ia adalah anak yang periang dan mempunyai keingintahuan yang sangat besar."
"... Karena itu, kadang menjadi keras kepala demi memenuhi keingintahuannya tersebut."
sambil meletakkan pena, Ia berkata
"Yuk... mau main apa sayang?"

***

"...bunga..."

2006-11-06T16:50:00.000-08:00

~The Song ~

"did you see my glasses?"
It was her favorite glasses
the one she wears every day
but she seems to lost it.. again and again

"did you see my comb?"
it was her favorite comb
the one that she uses every day
but she seems to lost it.. again and again

"did you see my... did you see my...?"
Now that was my favorite song
I hear it every day
and she will always certainly sing it again and again

and again...

2006-11-03T02:00:00.000-08:00

~ Beings ~

Beings
They were made
each one different from others
each one special

Beings
Only several of them
small number but numerous
much much more that we can imagine

Beings
they fly fastest of all
they are in many places
they are in many forms

Beings
they watch our every moves
they watch our every action
they watch and take note

O Beings of Lord
Once created may never faltered
who spread messages to us all
who take our life and rest our soul

Angels are what they are called

2006-11-02T22:37:00.000-08:00

~ Unfair ~

An old man call his two sons
He fears that his day will pass soon
and before he depart
he wants to give his fortune to his sons

Sons, I am giving you ten million dollar each
Use the money wisely
cos they are my life savings
both sons are grateful and left their father

the old man has thought his sons well
both are capable entrepreneurs
each has their own business
and their own way of thinking

the older son is a real estate developer
with his father money, he builds a top notch hospital
he hired the best doctors
bought the best medical equipments

he named the hospital his father's

the younger son is a religious politician
with his father money, he builds a grandeous mosque
he invited all orphans and the poor
to have meals three time daily there

he named the mosque his father's

When the time comes
the old man call his sons for the last time
he was proud
and he was thankful

the older says
father, I build this hospital for you
It will take care of you before you depart
and will give you blessing afterward

the younger says
father, I build this mosque for you
It will bless you before you depart
and will take care of you afterward

the old man pleased
he lived a happy life
taken care in the best hospital
and blessed in the grandeous mosque

but when all the three depart
they all went to hell

***

Another old man call his two sons
he has everything in this world
but he believe his beliefs
and he will do it in the name of Allah

Sons, I am giving you two sets of high explosive devices
in the name of Allah
blow up our enemies
and let us die in Jihad

the older son went to a top notch hospital
blew up his bomb
kills all the best doctors
and destroy the best medical equipments

he died in the name of Allah

the younger son went to a grandeous mosque
blew up his bomb
kills all the orphans and the poor
who were going to eat their meals

he died in the name of Allah

the old man was pleased with his sons
he died peacefully
and with his two sons
they all went straight to heaven

***

a little boy
read above stories
satisfied
I'm going to make movies out of these...

2006-11-02T17:07:00.000-08:00

~ My Princess ~

funny thing my daughter is
as clever as a talking bird
as smart as a photocopy machine
she is just so me

whenever I drink
she also wants a sip
whenever I drive
she always want to sit on my lap

whenever I say "no"
she says "no, no, no" but still go on
whenever I say "kiss me"
she gives her smile, and went about

she copied everything i said
she imitated everything i do
she watch and listen
and then repeated everything perfektly

she drooled on me
she puked on me
she wetted on me
and she pooped on me

but thats ok
its all just fine
I call them
the beauty of raising a princess

2006-11-01T17:13:00.000-08:00

~ Mami Jangan Menangis ~

mami maafkan aku
aku tak berniat menyakitimu
namun aku belum bisa mengendalikan tubuh mungilku
maafkan aku

mami maafkan aku
aku tak berniat memukulmu
namun aku belum bisa mengendalikan tangan kecilku
maafkan aku

mami maafkan aku
aku tak berniat mencakarmu
namun aku belum bisa mengendalikan jemariku
maafkan aku

mami maafkan aku
aku tak berniat menggigitmu
namun aku belum bisa mengendalikan gigi dan mulutku
maafkan aku

mami berhentilah menangis
aku hanya ingin bermain bersamamu
sebentar saja
malam ini

mami janganlah marah
aku hanya ingin bercanda bersamamu
dan berbahagia
malam ini

mami
maafkan aku
aku berjanji
untuk tidak nakal lagi

***

dengan rasa bersalah, ia pandangi maminya diujung sana
"kha..kang'.."

dan kemudian kuajak ia berbaring
"bo..bo'.."

dengan botol susu kegemarannya
"su..su'.."

sambil kuusap perlahan dan kukecup keningnya
kukatakan "Sayang, jangan nakal lagi yah, selamat bobo"

setengah terlelap ia menjawab
"abish.."

2006-10-31T22:50:00.000-08:00

~ Dream ~

I woke up this morning
you laid next to me
I got up and kissed you softly
but then i realized that it was a dream

I woke up and force myself to be awake
you laid next to me
I got up and kissed you softly
but still, i was still dreaming

I woke up again, and make sure that i was not sleeping
you laid next to me
I got up and kissed you softly
but then, i was still dreaming

I woke up again, and this time i pinch my arm hard
you laid next to me
I got up and kissed you softly
but i didnt feel pain when i pinch myself, so ... i was still dreaming

I woke up finally and i didnt pinch myself again
you still laid next to me
I got up and went straight to take shower
this time, the water feels cold. i was not dreaming anymore

***

a naughty smile and you asked
"You gonna kiss me or what?"

2006-10-31T22:30:00.000-08:00

~ Malaikat Kecilku ~

Kulihat wajahmu yang begitu lugu
dan senyum kecil yang kadang terlintas
bersih mulus tanpa noda
seperti hatimu yang tak berdosa

***

teringat aku waktu kau dalam kandungan ibumu
rajin ku beri kau susu
rajin ku beri kau vitamin
agar kau lahir sehat dan pandai

teringat aku waktu kau akan lahir
dua hari ku tak tidur menunggui ibumu
dua hari ku melihat bayi-bayi lain lahir dari rahim ibunya
namun kau tak kunjung datang

akhirnya kau terlahir kedunia
tangis kecilmu membuat air mataku berlinang
sentuhan kecilmu membuat dada ini bergetar
dan ku katakan "Selamat datang ke dunia malaikat kecilku"

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dengan kasih sayang ku belai dan ku kecup pipimu
tiba-tiba kau terbangun dari tidurmu
sambil mengernyitkan dahi kau berkata
"Su..su'.."